Thank God for going to church yester. On the way there, I started to tear as I told the Lord "God, I'm here." It was a good time for me - to worship the Lord as who I am.. not as a mother, wife etc. :)
The best part was getting to talk with other Guo Lai Ren mothers. As we talked, thoughts that there was something wrong with me dispelled. I really now realise that what I felt and thought through was very normal!
Today was a breakthough day. Instead of waiting for my darling to come back, I took Babe and Maid to NTUC to buy the week's groceries. Felt so good to be able to do something confidently.
Slowly, by God's grace and love from the family.. I am standing on my feet.